Frank Iero

13 May 2008 @ 07:59 am

Junichi, thank you.
I have a feeling I'm gonna be saying that for the rest of my life. Heh.
No, but you seriously helped me, and I definitely didn't deserve it.
Whatever's going on, y'know how yesterday you said you had an issue or something? Well, whatever it is, I hope it gets okay, and I wish I could snap my fingers and make it better for you.
But hey, we're crazy people, so I can try, right?

Bam,
I seriously owe you. Even though I hate the infirmary and didn't want to be there. At all. Just, y'know, thanks for being so stubborn, I guess.
No, that sounds terrible. :/ How about.. thanks for looking out for me like you did? Yeah.
I guess my rib won't heal outta my mouth now.
Thanks for holding my hand, too.

Uhm... basically, Junichi's trying to find me a new doctor or whatever. 'Cause I don't see mine enough.
And, we're trying to make it so my stepdad can't come see me anymore.

Sorry to everyone I freaked out on. I'm a stupid gaywad and I don't blame anyone if they decide to hate me.
I just.. want to be left alone. I don't want to have to deal with the world right now. I don't want to deal with anything. I kind of want to curl up into a ball and die. So, I love you guys, but I stick to my earlier statement: Go away, leave me alone.

Hazel, you were right. We are a lot alike. So, I'm trying to take care of myself, now, y'know?

Except, in typical Frank-fashion, I'm worried about Ryuutarou. Like, so much that it makes my chest hurt.
I don't know what happened, but he's in the infirmary, and he's not concious and I want to start crying because I promised I wouldn't let anything bad happen to him, and I promised I'd take care of him, but I didn't and now he's hurt and I didn't stop it from happening, all because of my stupid stepdad.
I'mafuckingterriblefriendandifhe'snotokayIswearI'lldie.

And yeah, I don't like not seeing Gee. At all.

- F. Iero.

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12 May 2008 @ 11:08 am

Leamme Alone, Please.

Okay, so, Junichi, I need to talk to you.

but uhm, other than that, I kind of want everyone to leave me alone, okay?
Just... for a little while.

I'd explain, but uh.. I don't really want to.

Nathan and Matthew, I'm still gonna do the whole cake and presents thing for your birthdays, 'cause I promised I would and you guys are amazing.
Sorry if I'm a total downer, though. Totally unintentional.

Whatsyourface, if you still want help with that card, I can.

I guess... that's all.

It's just.. way too much right now. Sorry, but go away. Leave me alone.

- F. Iero.

[ OOC: I'm working a lot this week, and it serves his storyline. This isn't a hiatus or anything.
It's just, y'know, Frank breaking down. 'Cause I'm an ass. ]

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11 May 2008 @ 03:46 pm

One to Six. (:

First, because I haven't had my chance to have a little freak out yet:
I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you. ^^
Everything about you is amazing.
I love you.

Second, you know who you are, do you have to call me Weasel? I mean, Frank is sufficient. Thank you for the little comment, and I feel mega-special, but Weasel? Really.

Thirrrrd, I think I might want a new doctor ~~because Nathan's brainwashed me into thinking I need serious help.~~
I mean, don't get me wrong, Dr. Lector is an awesome person, and really nice, but I just.. don't think he can help me, y'know?
I dunno.

Fourth, Ryuu, I'm keeping that promise. And that chineese food idea; do they have sticky rice? (:

Fifth, my stepdad called this morning. (And I'm only saying this because I refuse to say it out loud) I think he's telepathic. 'Cause the second things start going good is when he decides to "forgive me". I told him that I hated him and he told me he was still with my mum. I told him to stop calling, and he told me he loved me. I told him I should have actually killed him, and he told me to blow him. There's honestly no winning with this man. I really really really really want him to just go away.

Sixth, I'm done talking.

- F. Iero.

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10 May 2008 @ 08:38 am

What Rhymes With May Tenth?

[ OOC: Sorry to everyone I accidentally ditched last night. I'm an ass and I spaced about my computer when I got tired. Sorry! ]

So, I hung out with Nathan last night. He's really nice, and I drew a picture of him. And we explored, and I'm so not into the ghost idea, 'cause that freaks me the fuck out.

But y'know, after talking to him, I think I might need more help than I thought. :/ Which sucks, because I'm dead scared of doctors. They stare too much. And it's kind of like their job to be judgemental and give you pills that'll supposedly make you "better". I dunno, wanting help and getting help are two very different things. Besides, nobody except Nathan really... acknowledged that I have any problems anyways.

It's just not fair. I eat, and I lose three pounds. Fuck that shit, okay? I'm too fucking small to begin with. Being 4"9 (without shoes on) and weighing 87 pounds is not okay.

I'm worried about Ryuu. Heh, which is funny, because I always am. He was talking about something I might "change my mind about him" because of. Which, not only wouldn't happen, but kind of freaked me out. It's probable I'll spend the rest of my life worrying about him. The moon doesn't leave the sky, even in daytime.

Oh, and this post has earned anti-respect for that Guy Dundee dude, or whatever you wanna call him? GuyFeliciaPierce or something. 'Cause he scared Ryuu and won't take the responsibility for it. I mean, you're going to blame the sick kid? Fucking seriously? You say he "told it wrong", but he told it how he saw the situation, which means you're not doing your job very well, are you?

Apparently Gee declared war on me. ): That's just no. He deserved the post about his bum, and we all know it. End of story. Hazel wants to make crotch posts.

On a much happier note, it looks like Junichi and Hazel aren't at each other's throats anymore. :D Yeah, that made me overly happy. 'Cause they're both awesome and they're both my friends.

Anyways, I'll quit babbling now.

- F. Iero.

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09 May 2008 @ 07:57 am

Lyrics and Gerard Way's Bum.

So, I was going to do a post solely dedicated to Gerard's ass, but then I figured "No, that's just not nice."
So, I'm posting some lyrics I scribbled down this morning.
I made them up as I went last night, to help Ryuutarou sleep, so sorry if it's a little bit disoriented. But yeah, this is for my moon.

He had a way of leading
He had a passion for living
he had a smile that shone across the room

He had a mind of creating
He had talent overtaking
And everybody wants to be like him

(Chorus)
Heroes will let you down
they put on a smile when darkness surrounds them
Sometimes beautiful things turn black

Ill be here praying, hoping
It's your life, your choice, I'm hoping
The beautiful thing turns back

He could have so much potential
But insecurities are weightful
He doesn't seem to know his worth

The world is full of darkness
darkness that swallows heroes
And heroes sometimes have to make a choice

(Chorus)

The world will swallow you whole
If you don't stand your ground

(Chorus)

I hope you turn back.

And Now! Ladies and Gentlemen (or y'know, just gentlement) I present to you, my boyfriend's bum:

( but uhm, no touching, 'cause yeah, that's mine. :p )

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08 May 2008 @ 07:50 am

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So, I ate last night. Like, a lot. Probably more than I should have, because my stomach is still killing me.
But Hazel was nice enough to bring me enough food that could possibly feed a small army, and he makes really good carrots. ^^

Plus, Junichi said it was cafeteria or infirmary. So, I had a brownie and Coke with him, too.
I'll just say this now: if it weren't for him, I'd just, I dunno, die. heh. I'm still not positive why he puts up with my tantrums.

I'm pretty sure the only reason I actually agreed to eat was because Gee said he was worried. And worrying him is of the bad. 'Cause I love him. And he broke his nose. ~~Because he and Hazel are dumb.~~ So, I felt bad. And y'know, 'cause I'm sick of seeing all of my bones.

On another note, Nathan and I went and got ice cream last night. He's really nice, but he seems a little... disoriented? Something like that.

Ooh, ooohhh, OOH! lol, Whatshisface ('cause I still don't know if he'd get mad that I used his name or not) called me his friend! Yes, I am serious. He still called me a weasel, though. :/ If I'm a weasel, my name is Wesley, thank you.

I'm planning on going to see Uruha later today. I drew him a picture. I'm hoping it'll make him smile or something. 'Cause I know all too well how easy it is to let your feelings completely destroy you. Heh, anyone seen my stomach as of late? Example number one. So, yeah. I'm gonna go and annoy him until he's cheered up. ^^ It's a plan, anyways.

I gave Gerard a doodle I drew and he wants to put it on his wall. No, not taping it to his wall. Actually sketching it out and painting it. Yeah, I'm serious. I'm not gonna like, kill his fun or anything, but I don't think it was that good. He liked it. So, yeah, whatever. ^^

I guess this means I'm in a better mood. I'm sorry to everyone I ended up having a hissy fit at. None of you deserved it. I was just upset, and usually when I'm upset, no one talks to me. Then again, usually no one talks to me to begin with. Anyways, I'm really sorry, feel free to like, hit me or something. ~~Just not in my chest because my bones might break too easy now.~~

So.. yeah.

- F. Iero.

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07 May 2008 @ 07:28 am

It's Just Fucked Up.

Gee says it's not my fault. Junichi says it's not my fault. Hazel says it's not my fault.
I really fucking wish I knew how to believe them.

But that's so besides the point, and not really something I feel like dwelling on.
So, yeah. Back to the point.

I went and saw Uruha yesterday. And then I spent a long part of after it like, bawling my eyes out.
This shouldn't have happened to him.
And apparently, now, someone else has been.. raped.
And it's really fucking funny that the only thing I was trying to escape back home just so happens to be going on here.
And those poor people. I know that look better than a lot of people; the one Uruha has. That lost, haunted look. And the fear of being touched. The paranoia...
Shit like this... it fucking destroys you.

I'm gonna be like, probably too honest in telling everyone that I'm kind of mad at them.
I mean, why do you keep fighting and accusing, when you could be helping each other find whoever this is? You're all acting like total babies. And the fact that people being raped isn't enough for you to grow the fuck up and get along, kind of sickens me. It kind of makes me not want to know anyone here.

I've been kind of bluntly ignoring this for a while, but it's not worth it to ignore it; even if it hurts.
No one should have to go through shit like that, okay? Fucking no one.

I lied. I don't want to fucking be here.

- F. Iero.

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06 May 2008 @ 03:37 pm

Bad Day, I Guess.

She must have just forgot.
Yeah, that's definitely it.
She definitely just forgot that she was coming to see me.
Either that, or my mum just didn't come. Again.

It's gross, I think I've lost like, twelve pounds since I got here. I'm all scrawny and bony. :/ Hah, I love that no one except for that one nurse noticed.
It's not that I don't want to eat or anything. I'm just never hungry. And I never really want to eat the food that's here.
I had one of those massive bags of Smarties yesterday, though. But I shared it with whatshisface. Even though Gwen doesn't really like him. Gwen doesn't really like anybody these days. ):
But yeah. I have eaten. Just.. not enough, I guess. It's probably why I'm so tired all the time.

Speaking of whatshisface, even though he can be kinda mean, I think he's pretty cool. Except for when he crumpled up my drawing of him. That was kind of upsetting.
He keeps expecting me to give up and stop talking to him, though. Which, I guess, makes sense. But it's me. So, it's not gonna happen.

Things are going good for Hazel! *does little dance* I'm glad he's taking care of himself instead of everyone else. Then again, I could be accused of doing the same thing as him.
But seriously, Hazel deserves a break. He's awesome and pretty much has the answer to everything.

Anyways, I haven't really got much to say other than that. I think I'm so skinny my hips hurt, though.
I should really work on that.

- F. Iero.

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04 May 2008 @ 07:51 pm

Spongebob or Patrick?

So, Chris -who is very obviously confused- is under the impression that Patrick is cooler than Spongebob.
Which, no.
Who wouldn't love an A-Sexual sponge that lives in a pineapple? With a snail named Gary?
And -hah!- if Patrick is so rad, why isn't the show based on him, hmm?

So, this is my poll. Spongebob or Patrick?

Patrick & SpongeBob

Patrick - 3.
Spongebob - 5.

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04 May 2008 @ 02:30 pm

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So, I'm officially worried about Ryuutarou.
He may be completely bonkers or whatever, but fuckin' no one deserves to freak out over a guy like that. Especially him, who's -let's face it- not great at dealing with things to begin with.
He and I watched Hannah Montana last night, though, and that was fun. 'Cause he sat around and called her a slut the entire show.
He's an awesome guy. Seriously. ( plus he lets me punk his clothes )

I really haven't been doing much lately. But Gwen's pissing me off. I love her and all, but I am so ready to like, throw things at her. She keeps telling me all this shit about how my stepdad's gonna come back, and she's decided to hate all of my friends again. She was even close to doing that thing where she talks through me and having a bitchfit at Gerard. Which is, y'know, so not okay.

So.. uhm, what else can I tell you?

I could tell you my story about Joe the penny, but I won't. 'Cause hardly any of you agree that nickels are assholes, anyways. lol. ^^

Heh. I wish I was normal.

- F. Iero.

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03 May 2008 @ 09:44 am

Thanks.

So, I pretty much owe Junichi. Like, big time. (He'll probably disagree to this, but it's definitely true.)
He's probably responsible for my last few shreds of sanity. I don't think I could have handled yesterday if he weren't there.
I wish people would try to get to know him. Because behind his being an arrogant prick, he's a really nice guy. Who makes really good tea.
And he actually gets along with Gwen. No one gets along with Gwen.
So, yeah, Junichi: seriously, thank you.

In other, not-so-new news; I love Gerard. Just like, bluntly put. He's so effing cute when he's tired, though. Like, I have to try really hard not to like, smother him with kisses when he's being all cuddly. Mhm.

I miss Chris. I think he's been hiding out in his room or something. I guess I'm just kind of worried about him. Which is weird, y'know, since I haven't known him for that long.

And Matt's in his room too. Apparently he's not allowed to leve until monday, which is completely dumb, especially since I still need to give him his button.

And Quinneth is comfy. And absolutely amazing for putting up with my want to go outside every five minutes. Even though it's always sunny, and prefers the rain. Mhm.

Not that this is an enormous shock, but now that I know my stepdad's not coming back (again, thank you Junichi) I think I might kinda like it here. Despite all of the shit in between.
Better here than anywhere else, right?

- F. Iero.

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02 May 2008 @ 06:23 pm

Cheater.

Gerard Gerard Gerard.
I definitely won that bet, and you definitely cheated with that post of yours. So, this is 'cause of that, and y'know, just 'cause I love you. (Plus I'm trying to cheer you up.)

Things I love about you:

- how embarrassed you get when I call you beautiful.
- those cute noises you make when we kiss.
- the way I'm pretty much sure you aren't at all as scared of The Hills Have Eyes as you said you were.
- the fact that you think I'm perky.
- that I can cuddle up to you and feel completely safe.
- the way you flinch whenever I put my hands on your stomach. (even though I don't think you notice)
- the fact that you seem to remember most things about most of our conversations.
- your bunny face.
- that you never painted over the part of your wall I ruined.
- the way you pout, & the way you blush.
- your smile.
- your voice.
- that you're so nice to Gwen.
- that you always check with me first before we do anything.
- your sense of humour.
- that whenver we disagree on anything, I want to give in.
- your taste in music.
- that you apologize for everything, even when you don't regret it.
- that the butterflies never go away when I'm with you.
- the fact that you don't realize how absolutely amazing you are.
- the fact that I do.
- that I could go on forever and still have things to say that I love about you.
- that you love me back.

did that make you feel even a little bit better? maybe a little embarrassed? (:
I'll keep going if it didn't. 'Cause I seriously can.

- F. Iero.

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01 May 2008 @ 08:11 am

My Dad.

The only thing I really remember about my dad is his voice. It sounds too much like mine. The way he screamed 'FUCK!' when he burnt himself on the stove. Exactly how I say it.
I've been told that I look like him, too. Same jawline, same eyes, same nose. It's all too much like him.
Because there's two ways this could go: I could hate him for ruining my mum and my life, or I could miss him so much it hurt.
From what I remember -and what I've been told later on- he just walked away. We came home one day and he was just gone. I still have the note he left on the fridge.
Did I ruin his life too?
It's funny, he's the only person in the entire world that I really and truly hate, and he's the only person in the world that I don't want to.
I mean, yeah, I hate my stepdad. But I'm still nice to him, and I've only ever yelled at him once. ( Speaking of him, Junichi, remember when you said that you'd come next time he visited? Uhm, is that offer still standing? )
My dad, I don't think I could be in the same room with him without screaming and crying and throwing shit. I dunno.
Maybe things would be different if he called. Or even said goodbye.

I've been trying really hard to remember a time when my mum was completely happy, y'know? When she just had a brilliant smile on her face. I've seen pictures; she was like that with my dad. Ever since, it's like, she's this empty shell. And I guess, after talking to a few people about it, I kind of realized that I can't fix it. Even if I want to. So.. what do I do now?

Anyways, they moved me so that I'm in a completely different wing than Gee. Unfair. Just.. unfair. I probably wouldn't be so ugh about it if I didn't spend like, at least 50% of my time in his room. Yeah.
I think this might be one of those annoying "Be careful what you wish for" things. :/ I mean, yesterday I was complaining that I'm too lazy, and now I have to walk more than three meters to see my boyfriend. So, I guess it is fair. Just... not. Heh. Don't you just love irony?

- F. Iero.

P.S. He's the most amazing thing you've ever seen in your life, right?

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30 April 2008 @ 07:50 am

Gerard..

Dear Geebear,

I wrote out this really long message about like, everything, and then I read it over and thought about it, and I figured that none of it really matters.

'Cause I'm in love with you.

And that's all that really counts, right?

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29 April 2008 @ 03:37 pm

Forgive & Forget All The Moments You Regret.

So, my stepdad called. And y'know, I didn't actually WANT to take the call, but I did anyways.
And now I'm fucking torn.
He said that he was really sorry, and that he only did those things 'cause he's so in love with me. He said that he never meant to hurt me, it always just happened, because I never seemed to love him back. And it's almost disturbing that that's all it took.
I don't want to forgive him, but I feel like I already have.

The phonecall pissed Gwen off to a apocalyptic extent, and I've been trying to calm her down all day. I'm really worried about her. She is getting better, though.
Like, unless I'm doing things with Gerard that she really doesn't want to see, she's been slowly becoming my less-scary Gwen again.
Oh, and Jae's back! -does a little dance- He disappeared for a while, but walked through my wall yesterday morning and sat on me. :)

Gwen says I spend too much time with Gerard. And Gwen can bite me. 'Cause I think Josh was right. Mhm.
I'd go into a long, detailed description about how much I adore him and why, but it might take a while, and I'd probably start really pissing a couple of people off. 'Cause I've got this habit (in case any of you have noticed) where most of my topics drift into thinking/talking about him, anyways. Sorry about that. ^^;
It's not my fault, I swear it. Seriously.

That's about all I really have to share currently.

- F. Iero.

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28 April 2008 @ 05:51 pm

Took Two Steps Ahead, and One Huge Step Back.

So, I saw my step-dad today. It was all sorts of not fun with the inappropriate touching under the table and the sneering.
He was really pissed when he found out that Hannibal knows. It's not like I was the one who said anything. It was Gwen!
Anyways, he was like "Well, I suppose I forgive you blah blah blah" with the hands going in places I'm definitely not comfortable with, and I tuned in my inner Hazel and threatened him.
I pretty much told him that if he ever put his hand there again, I'd make sure that I sacked him so hard, sex would hurt. :)
Then he tried to hit me, and I freaked out, and ran off. Okay, it was almost brave; you've gotta give me that.

I don't want to see him anymore. I just don't. End of story.
Yeah, so, I don't know about the consequences of this. I should have thought of that before, really. If he leaves my mum, she'll have no one. She'll probably kill herself. And I can't help her. So, it was a bad idea, and I regret it, but it happened, and I don't think he's going to be groping me anytime soon.

On a definitely much happier note, I made Matt and I our Pluto buttons. xD They're blue, and they say "I'm Still A Planet!" Yeah, he and I are hardcore. And we're going to jump the fence wearing gangster hats and go to the park, and then come back. Mhm.
Ooh, but speaking of buttons; I made one for Gerard, and he says he likes it. :) That made me so happy, I swear I could have like, swooned. It's black with red writing, and it says "Gee's A Vampire (:"
Have I mentioned that I really like kissing him? Well, I do. Hell, I like just being around him. ( Sorry, Quinn, I don't think your Nny costume can change that. xD )

I met Joseph! I think, he might be one of my favorite people like, ever. He's so nice, and he saw the turtle in the pirate hat. Mhm. He's really really easy to be nice to. ^^ 'Cept, he says that he doesn't really have any other reason to exist except to help Chris out. Which, may be true to an extent, but is definitely an unpleasant thought. ~~Neil, quit picking on him.~~

So, uhm, yeah. That's about it. I think. Heh, after that episode with my step-dad, I think I might have to go see my doctor, yeah? lol.

Woaahh, WAIT! I forgot something else. Mine and Ray's new song. Mhm. We made it up ourselves.
"If you have a stalker, and you don't know what to do
Gouge him in the eyes and kick him in the shoe!
If that doesn't work, then sack him in the balls
Eventually, eventually, he'll fall, fall, fall!"
You love it. Admit it.

- F. Iero.

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27 April 2008 @ 09:12 am

The Good, The Bad, & The Ugly.

I've always wanted to use that line. ^^
And since I'm in the spirit of the good, the bad, and the ugly, I'll say it in that order.

The Good:
Gerard Way. Yeah, I am that tacky. ^^
Well, he's really cool, and he's mega-nice, and he's into horror movies, and likes Skittles but not the purple kind, and he's a really good friend.
Who the fuck am I kidding? I'm like, smitten.
~~And I really like kissing him.~~ We're gonna have more movie nights. ^^

The Bad:
Aoi wants to steal Uruha. Even though, y'know, technically he's already his or whatever.
But he's my roomate! And I need him there, or I can't sleep. And he's like my big brother, and helps me with everything.
And what am I going to do if he and I can't talk every night?!
I think I'm gonna make a green button that'll say "Please Don't Steal My Roommate." on it, and walk up to Aoi and point at it. I wonder what he'd say?
I mean, I can't stay in this room alone. And having a roommate that's not Uruha.. it's scary, and uncool, and not something I want at all.

And now, The Ugly:
Eww, stepdad.
Yeah, he's coming to visit. ~~Which actually means he's coming to secretly grope me.~~
Saying I'm not looking forward to it is like, the understatement of the year. But he pays the bills and he makes my mum happy, so whatever. I'll deal with it. It's not like I haven't before.
I'll be honest; it's mostly the yelling I'm not looking forward to. I hate it when people are violent, and I really hate it when people yell in an angry way.
God knows he'll be bitching about how I broke my mother's heart, even though she didn't remember I was here. And I just want to throw things at him.
But if I'm not nice to him, he won't take care of my mum. And now that I'm not around, he's the only person who will. So, I've gotta be extra nice to the beast.
Wish me luck?

- F. Iero.

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26 April 2008 @ 10:57 am

Broken bums & Picspam.

Yeah, so I pretty much broke my ass last night.
Uhm, yeah, you read it right: I broke my butt.
I was hanging out with Gerard, and I fell.
( Yes, that's what really happened jerkfaces. :P )

On the upside, Gerard got a puppy. xD He's so cute, I could probably cuddle him to death. Except, y'know, he'd bite my nose. Haha, but get this: he named him Frankenstein. Frankenstein. Yeah, I do feel cool. I think I'm going to harrass Gee until he lets me draw mini Frank. Probably won't take much though, 'cause I think Gee's a bit of a pushover, but y'know, that's okay. After some serious pouting, I actually convinced him to let me draw him. ^^ (hah, the person, not the dog)

Uhm, so, Uruha's still amazing. And he's still helping me out with pretty much anything I have even a slight problem with. ^^
Bam; still needs to get better, but I need to bring him smokes. I should get on that soon.
Hazel is currently in a state of rocking my socks. rofl. He's awesome, and he listened to me babble.
And Matt. Hah, I love Matt, he's so much fun to hang out with. Plus, in our past lives, we were an Irish couple with pretty children. Explains why we're both short, huh? xD If I ever get out of here, we agreed I'd come to visit. Mhm.

Okay, so, since I have nothing left interesting to say (unless you want to hear me babble about the boy I like) I'm going for a picspam. Yep, I'm a conformist, ladies and gents.

( It's What All The Cool Kids Are Doing. )

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24 April 2008 @ 07:46 pm

Frank Iero, the amazing Post-Whore!

One of these days, I'm going to make myself a pretty blue button that says "POST WHORE! :)" on it.
That would be hardcore.

But anyways. This:

This, ladies and gentlemen ( well, actually just gentlemen. xD ) means I love Uruha.
He's honestly like the big brother I wished I had growing up.
Not only, did that amazing man buy me an awesome guitar. But he went so far as to buy stickers so that I could put the word "Pansy" on it. I love him.

On another note, I kind of had a minor hissy fit at Neil. Which ended up being a hissy fit at Chris. Which I felt really really bad for. But we're cool now. :) He's honestly, one of the coolest people I know. Which isn't saying much, because I don't know a lot of people, but still. xD

Yeah, so, Bam, get better. Please.

In other news, I called my mom today. She said she didn't even know I was gone.
It's been what, almost a week? And she didn't notice?
I love my mom so much, but she treats me like I'm her slave or something.
I don't matter to her. She doesn't even want me. Not after dad left.
My day went from really great, to really not, really fast.

- F. Iero.

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23 April 2008 @ 04:07 pm

Lazy Daisy.

So, I wish I had anything interesting to type. I don't, really.
I'm being lazy and boring.
Sorry about the last post, again. Gwen's bonkers, ignore her.

Wow, speaking of which, Hannibal yelled at her. 0_0 Like, seriously. Yelled, loudly.
I'll be honest; it kind of scared the shit out of me. Only kind of.

I think I made another friend.
Yes, this is the point where I start freaking out about how many people are nice to me here.
Like, holy tapdancing Jesus! No one's even tripped me in the hall!
A couple of people are kind of mean, but like, there's a few mean people everywhere. And I can blame medication here.

I think that's why I don't want to go on meds. I don't want them to change me.
Even if I hate myself, I'd hate someone else as me, more.

So, I guess, that's about all. I dunno what to write.

Hmm... maybe...
When I was in 9th grade, there was this guy Jake. He was really cool, and got angry really easy. I wish I knew why back then. I probably wouldn't have blamed him for all my traumas in highschool if I did. The guy beat me so bad I was in the hospital for a little while. I thought, since he hated me, that's why everyone else did. He got sent off to some institute the summer before 10th grade.
I guess I've been thinking about him a lot lately. I wish I could apologize for hating him so much. He didn't really deserve it.

- F. Iero.

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